There will always be things that take you by surprise. I found out quickly at the beginning of this month that the scariest times in life aren’t when you are personally in danger, but when your child’s life may be in danger.
It actually started the last weekend in July, my baby girl said, “I have a really bad headache!” We gave her Tylenol and a cold rag and figured that would correct the problem. Then she threw up, we gave her some medicine for her stomach. We took her to the emergency room because she was also running a fever. (My son and I had just tested positive for Covid so we thought maybe she had it too.)
The ER doctor told me, she tested negative for Covid, Strep, UTI and that they were able to bring her fever down with correct dosing of meds (they gave her both Tylenol and Motrin at the same time!) then they sent us home early in the morning, a little past midnight.
Later that same day, her fever returned with a vengeance, 106.3!!! I had never dealt with such a high fever, I quickly grabbed her and walked her into the shower and ran cool water over her head and body as she cried, knowing that she must be feeling completely miserable. Mom’s Pajamas now completely soaked. We managed to get her fever down to 102, I changed as quick as I could, and then we loaded her back into the car and drove back to the ER. I don’t think we even made it 12 hours at home, before returning her to the ER.
I checked her in and told the lady at registration that I wanted her seen as soon as possible that she now has a high fever of 106, and I wanted her checked for MISc. ( multiple inflammatory syndrome in children) the article I read that lead me to believe this told about an 8 year old girl that had shown symptoms similar to the symptoms my daughter was experiencing. That link is attached below.
The ER doctor took blood and checked her for inflammatory markers, they said they were concerned about the markers for her heart so they would be transferring her to Children’s Hospital. Their facility would be better equipped for the tests they would need to run on her. I let my husband know that they would be transporting her by ambulance and that I would ride along with her, and that they would need to go home and pack things for us as we were unsure how long this stay would last.
My husband and 14 year old son rushed home, packed and headed up to the hospital, my daughter and I still waiting for the ambulance to take us to the other hospital. The ER doctor started her on antibiotics and IV, he said that her most recent UA showed that she did have a urinary tract infection. Ok, weird she had no symptoms of a UTI. I was relieved that they may have found the reason for the fever though.
Once they loaded her into the ambulance and I buckled myself in… I took a deep breath and prayed. I prayed for her health and that we would make it there safe. An ambulance moving at 90 miles an hour would make anyone say a few prayers, but I was seriously upset for my child. We made it to Children’s in no time.
Once we were at Children’s, time seemed to stop. We were first wheeled into the ER, they ran an EKG and said her heart looks good but they still wanted to admit her because they wanted to see how her blood panel looked in a few days. My mind was constantly thinking of what could be causing this and how they were going to make her feel better?
The doctors came in and said they would continue the IV antibiotics that were started at the original hospital and that they would continue to do tests. Then there were pokes, lots and lots of pokes. Her veins were being difficult, and the place where they managed to set two IV’s weren’t giving blood like they needed either. They did a chest X-ray, some small spots on lungs, could be pneumonia, could be nothing. Current antibiotics should help. Then an ultrasound of her abdomen, nothing standing out. Then a CT scan of her abdomen, there is an indication of something going on with her kidney. Doctor tells me over the phone “that despite her inflammatory markers, they are leaning more towards pyelonephritis.” I asked “what is that and how do you spell it?” She responds with “kidney infection.” Wait, what? A kidney infection. I’ve had kidney infections, they cause pain in the lower back . It didn’t make sense to me. But after two weeks of antibiotics she improved and the fever had finally dissipated after 7 days on IV antibiotics. Sounds like a serious kidney infection, right?
We still aren’t convinced that it was just a kidney infection, as it doesn’t explain all of her other symptoms, but we are taking her to a specialist soon for her kidney, to make sure they are functioning properly. we are just so grateful that our baby girl was able to start 3rd grade today and that we are back home, safe and sound!
The birthday, that says to the world “over the hill!”
I do take things quite literally, so I laced up my hiking boots, traveled to the Ozark’s of Arkansas with the fam, and we hiked their mountainous trails. First of all, what stunning scenery.
I can truly say that getting to this point in life isn’t really “over the hill.” I now understand I’m mid-climb, and I also know I’m still climbing! The point of living is knowing there is still so much more to climb, and the beautiful discovery of self is in realizing the unique gifts God has given to you during the strenuous parts of the climb, not only to ensure that you make it to the top, but to bring as many people with you along the way. Which means to me… don’t get in anyone’s way, don’t intentionally hurt them along their personal journey, lift other people up with encouragement, and guide them and make them stronger with truth.
Things I’ve learned in this last stretch of my climb…
Loving God is really important!
Loving yourself is really important!
Loving your spouse is really important!
Loving your children is really important!
Loving your neighbor is really important!
Loving honesty is critical for growth!
Loving peace is critical for your soul!
When you ACCEPT His blessing, His mercy, His forgiveness and ultimately His LOVE, you can truly start to utilize the gifts he has created in you, for you and for others on a daily basis.
This acceptance brings profound meaning to your climb. I know it has brought much meaning to mine. The instant that you realize you haven’t been climbing to reach the top for yourself, but to show others the way is the moment your steps become less heavy, the weight is shared among all of God’s people. We were meant to help one another… not cause each other to sink into the burden of sin. The Lord has been working on cutting away the parts of me that aren’t working for His will, and I am certain that following God’s way is the only way! 🦋
If I were to look at the rest of my life as a downhill coast… I believe it would lead to an early grave. I’ll keep my aim on high places. The mountain I’ve been placed on may peak at a greater elevation point than the hills most people my age complete by 40. Lord knows I’ve been climbing. I’m not done yet! Hallelujah!
There seems to be a monster lurking in public places.
Set the scene: The year 2020!
The disruptive sounds of a hacking cough,
Promoting a look of alarm
And the indignant scoff.
(A novel virus enters the scene…) 🦠
Most all schools are closed…
Teachers work from home,
Suicide rates increasing,
our young people deciding,
Why were they taught,
that this was an option,
The Fauci & friends decided early in 2018
how THEY would beat this thing.
There must be only one remedy
“THE remedy,” will be a warp speed vaccine.
Normally, a process that takes a decade.
With emergency authorization, decisions were made.
I’m sure those “willing” volunteers didn’t hear
Some VAERS reports may contain information that is incomplete, inaccurate, coincidental, or unverifiable. Vaccine safety experts study these adverse events and look for unusually high numbers of health problems, or a pattern of problems, after people receive a particular vaccine.
Recently, the number of deaths reported to VAERS following COVID-19 vaccination has been misinterpreted and misreported as if this number means deaths that were proven to be caused by vaccination. Reports of adverse events to VAERS following vaccination, including deaths, do not necessarily mean that a vaccine caused a health problem.
~ CDC VAERS Website – ** Why would someone take the time to report a death if it wasn’t directly due to taking a vaccine?🧐
& surprise, surprise, within a year…
Listen everyone, the cure to Covid is here!
It’s safe and effective, get yours today!
Why??? Because you should all do as I say!
Wait no, it’s more like an immune booster, not a cure!
Just take one shot, no…
two shots, now three…
Well hmm, maybe four!
A booster & a vaccine card for proof
If you don’t… *Poof*
All things that go against this “scientific situation.”
Will now be tagged as misinformation.
Facebook helps “your content has been removed for a guideline violation.”
Let’s not forget the platform with the blue bird.
Twitter tells their conservative users “you shall never be heard!”
Freedom of speech, (brief pause)
It started with Dr. Seuss, now it’s made it to Dr. Oz.
Taking away credibility of opposing doctors, without proof or cause.
We need new politicians that will honor integrity.
We need less government, immediately!
Year of mandates, 2021
Social distancing, masks, & “vaccination”
Social media no longer a place for debate
No dialectical conversations as of late
No truth or any real data given,
The world deserves an explanation,
Not 75 years from now,
The people will not just listen & remain quiet.
Or tune in to watch your “mostly peaceful” BLM riots!
Remember citizens, we must all trust their manipulated science
Too many loved ones taken by “Covid.”
Or was it the forced, poor, medical protocols that did?
Or that the vaccine manufacturers are legally protected
“More than 547 million doses of COVID-19 vaccines were administered in the United States from December 14, 2020, through February 14, 2022. During this time, VAERS received 12,304 preliminary reports of death (0.0022%)
~ CDC VAERS Website
CDC : copied & pasted direct from the website today 2/21/2022 @ 9:38 pm… incase they change it! CNN
The manufacturers no longer held liable.
Deaths and injury numbers, the only data unreliable??? 🧐
Soldiers FORCED to take THE inefficient shot
They will be dishonorably discharged
Nurses and doctors forced to bare their arms…
It matters not…
That they survived the initial two years with natural immunity
I ask now, that as a community
We stop calling it a vaccine, or pushing this absurdity!
Fear increases… it’s been 2 years now since 2020
Stop calling it a vaccine.
They continue to change all the definitions…
Man is a woman, woman is a man
Trump didn’t win, it was Joe Biden
Elections aren’t rigged, just so you know…
Be on the lookout for your mail in vote!
People aren’t tired of dealing with the left
Those types of people are just “white supremacists.”
Ukraine’s borders are more important than ours.
Clarify to the people Biden, who is in control of these powers?
Our southern border sits open like 7-11, open all hours
Don’t worry officials, the big guy is documenting your sin.
All of these crimes against humanity!
You still think we can’t win?
I pray for the courage to stop this insanity
Don’t take my word for it, open your eyes!
You’ll see the unbelievable amount of lies,
For instance this one “if illegals can’t vote then democracy dies!”
Watch “The News” for 5 seconds and you’ll see what I mean.
Who is this good for? It’s Good for WHO!
And their many large donors.
“As a result, those “buckets” can be misleading. In 2016, for example, FNIH listed eight donors who each gave more than $2.5 million, its top category. But a separate report FNIH filed with the Internal Revenue Service reveals that one of those donors gave $19.1 million. (The filing does not name the donor, but FNIH told Science it was the Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation in Seattle, Washington.)”
~ Science.org… U.S. lawmakers want NIH and CDC foundations to say more about donors Congressional panel seeks greater transparency from bodies that raise private funds for federal research 29 JUN 2018 (ahead of Covid-19🤔 looks fishy to me… just saying!) BYJEFFREY MERVIS
A topic to discuss at depth with educated stoners
These provocative actions against the working people, kicking ass!
No surprise they attacked the workers, they want a dependent class!
We have been so busy, trying to pay off debt & live our best lives!
We didn’t know, we’d have to fight Big Pharma & Big Tech to survive!
We will not be forced to just listen to the MAN!
WE listen, learn and lastly WE stand!
Stand against the Tyranny invading our lands!
We will instead fight to keep our rights,
A remedy for destructive behavior, is love not hate!
As so many peacefully protest, guarding the gate
God says now we must postulate!
The attack they have delivered is deeper than greed
What more could these elites possibly need?
A trillion dollars seems to be more than enough.
They want full control. Rules are as such:
• The act of critical thinking, no longer allowed.
• white people are privileged, yes even the down and out.
• 4 year olds should learn about sexual stuff and Critical Race Theory
• If one speaks out against THE Authority…. ————-Label them a racist, or a domestic terrorist!
• Do what we tell you, not what is right or honest!
• The only way to survive this pandemic is to trust that the government knows best!
*Disclaimer, this poem was written as a piece of art and my method of word therapy. Let those that read it, begin their individual journey to seek truth. Deception is present in all directions, more than I have ever observed. I am praying for all people, even those that push these atrocities on our most innocent people, our children. You are not my enemy, but an enemy of goodness. That’s what makes you Evil!*
Need more info to motivate you to do research, look at current world leaders and their connections to World Economic Forum!
Every year, I find myself evaluating my life’s journey as my birthday approaches. This year will be the last year in my thirties. I don’t think 40 is that old, now that I’m sitting so terribly close to it. I look at all the things I have experienced over the last 300+ days of my 38th year and try to evaluate all the ways I could have been a better person, while quietly celebrating the times I am sure I did my very best.
Dissolving the lens I once used to look at myself, helped to initiate a sudden series of revelations. Removing this lens allowed an opportunity to meet my true self. At first, I began to see who I had always been. The innocence that I thought I had lost, resurfaced, reminding me that it had never left. The curiosity, I used when exploring my world as a child, gained intensity. The biggest inner transformation occurred when I decided to accept all of my mistakes.
I mean all of my mistakes, the big ones, the small ones, the consistent mistakes, and my future mistakes. I forgave myself with the most simple of intentions. I recognized that I was already forgiven, the only living soul without sin, the man with a flawless record, had not only forgiven me, he painfully & selflessly sacrificed his body without deserving any of it. He took my lashings, he bled for me. He wept for me. He died for me.
If he could forgive me, then it would be a “perfect” thing for me to also forgive my past transgressions as well as any future transgressions. I thought deeply about his physical sacrifice, the pain he endured on my behalf. All so that I could be saved, and instead of choosing to live within this gift of eternal blessings, I was choosing to live in the physical pain of sin. He knew long before you & I were ever born that ALL humans would need this absolute forgiveness. I started chipping away the deception I had lived in most of my life. The idea that I wasn’t enough. A lie! The idea that I was not created with a purpose. A lie! The idea that I was set to live out the path my mother had cleared for me. A lie! The idea that I couldn’t be a messenger for God because of my sins. A lie! The idea that my soul was lost or confused. A lie! I began to rebuke the lies. I began to tell myself the truth. I began to love myself, not in a selfish way, but in the way I could finally see my soul as not being perfect, but as a soul that was formed and yet still worthy of His only son’s sacrifice. You are worthy of forgiveness and that was why such a huge sacrifice was necessary, a perfect sacrifice for a multitude of sins.
With a large dose of truth & pure light I began to forgive myself… I noticed that I was no longer just a blossom, but a beautiful bouquet of self-love.
This past year has awakened me in more ways than I ever thought possible. Each day bringing new & welcomed challenges, as well as a new level of self-awareness. Becoming self-aware unlocked some deeply buried potential. This higher-level of awareness began to absolve the negative lens I had used to view my life. Looking back now, I can clearly see that this had been the singular lens in which I had been looking through while trying to find purpose in my life. It is difficult to find your truth and your purpose when the view is covered in lies (the negative lens).
I became acutely aware of boundaries I had permitted to be crossed and broken, I became aware of my detachment from the meaningful parts of life, and learned of the places in which to apply necessary boundaries. I searched myself for all the pain and injury from my past that I had allowed to reside in my spirit, and began to write eviction notices. I had carried them all for far too long. Childhood trauma, you can leave! You are evicted. I don’t need you. I can take care of myself now, as well as I take care of my own children. (This required a lot of forgiveness and a huge release of carried resentment that I felt as it physically detached from my spirit.) I grieved each time I evicted past injuries. I had to intentionally set aside time to forgive the people that I felt had taken advantage of my kindness, my innocence, my goodness! I had found that I had subconsciously held onto this pain for most of my adult life as justification for my own errors. I had been living life like some sort of weary traveler, loaded down with negative feelings, thoughts and emotions.
I now have a greater understanding of myself & that there will always be things that I encounter that I will try to hold onto, and I can at times be better served by just relenting my control. If you are like me, you may try to control most things in your life, so to release this control can be very challenging. Learning to let things go can be a painful exercise, understanding that we are unable to direct specific or certain outcomes can be comparable to cutting off one’s own leg. I had to figure out where my ability to change things began/ended. The moment I became aware of myself and the parameters of my influence. I began to better understand and give proper respect to the outermost boundaries of my influence. This helped me relinquish the control I once held onto so tightly. A firm grip is not long lasting. My firm grip would soon lead to the loss of any type of grip allowing moments for everything to spiral out of control. I’d find myself completely exhausted, waking among the aftermath of the storm, I had created.
I didn’t know how to find me, and instead of broadening my search, I kept looking in the same old places. I kept looking for me in other people. No one knew what I was looking for or that I had felt I had been a missing person. It was easier not to explain my search… not to ask who they thought I was? Secretly, I would search my surroundings and people I had been around to find what I alone had been hiding. Who am I? What did I want? What was my purpose?
For the longest time I couldn’t distinguish between the things I’d done to please others versus what I actually wanted. I know I’ve made decisions in the past prescribing to a life that is better for everyone. These decisions however wise, left me feeling proud and yet confused. Some passing moments or events would cause me to question my motives. It was only when I would seek the stillness and the quiet that I could realize my purpose. I’d realize my heart. Some memories swirl tirelessly there. Kept guarded internally, so I can keep them safe. The heart/soul, is a vast container of all that is good, it holds everything that is dear, it also contains and provides love.
My mind can often be confused by the sacrificing of self, (My flesh). It is only when we have removed the flesh can we discover our spirit. My soul will seek to understand His will, my self will seek to understand my own will. When I relinquish control now I do so confidently knowing that my purpose is to fulfill His will and not my own. Remarkably, with this understanding you realize nothing brings greater spiritual fruit. My own happiness grows through acknowledging my spiritual purpose. Love Abides in me and I am in Love with who “I Am”!
Praying for peace during these uncertain times! Remember, you belong, you have a purpose and know that you are loved! Thanks for reading!
I had this crazy idea a couple of weeks ago to start a series on the U. S. Constitution. I thought it would help me process my thoughts about what is happening in our country & about the importance of the Constitution. This would also offer an opportunity for me to teach the things I have learned. It is, after all, what I do. I do understand now how important it is for ALL of us to be diligent in our duties as citizens. To highlight the importance of our unyielding support and defense of the Constitution. There are worse things I could do with my time…
Upon my 🧐 research I found YouTube videos that explain the Bill Of Rights and videos that explain the history behind our founding documents in more detail. I even enrolled in free online course about the U.S. Constitution through Hillsdale College. You can find that website below.
It has taken a lot of patience to sort through all of the things that we are given upon being born a U.S. citizen, but even more patience to try and understand why someone would want the opposite ideas our founders set out to create for our country centuries ago. Our government and it’s defining documents were given to this country two hundred years ago to help maintain & outline our liberties. Our current population of citizens are divided in this understanding about the true purpose of our government body. We should be working to constantly maintain order among our officials and to always seek an increased understanding of the Constitution . Not to see which side of the aisle should have power. It shouldn’t be a constant battle of “tug of war.” There are only two sides, meaning we may function more divinely within the middle ground.
Duties and Rights of U.S. Citizens
What I have found…
Well, I finally finished it… here it is. Enjoy! Episode II
This past year has had many hits… and the hits they just keep on a coming! There have been the obvious obstacles that people generally trudge through day to day, some people with complaint, while others try to stay optimistic in the hopes that these obstacles only rear their ugly heads temporarily. It seems as though the obstacles we have collided with are much larger than anything we could have ever imagined. It’s no longer the low-paying job, it’s the low-paying job that demands that you stay home without pay to quarantine because of a likely exposure to COVID. It’s no longer only worrying about how the kids will get to school, now it’s worrying how the kids will get an education, when there is no way to access internet, and barely enough money to keep the electricity on. It’s no longer just car problems, now it’s the worry of most travel being banned. The rent being due, even though you are no longer able to work because small businesses can no longer stay open. Churches everywhere were forced to close their doors. What grows in a place of worship? Perhaps all things needed to survive the fear a pandemic brings, faith, hope and love. A place of worship (any denomination) provides a safe place for all people to connect as a collective body to meditate on hope for a better tomorrow. Life, the way in which we had grown accustomed and complacent with was flipped over, tossed upside down, with it’s ass exposed in 2020. Most individuals, regular everyday-joes, have been in a critical battle against most of these “bad situations” in order to survive. Now add on top of all of that the misuse and abuse of political powers.
Some of the things I just mentioned above are all very real effects of Covid-19, and I didn’t even mention the muzzling of the masses with mandatory masks. While these effects have been brutal to many people all across the globe. This is a message to everyone to stay quiet. Well… I can no longer stay quiet.
A very real disease has infected the walls of our U.S. Government. The symptoms are present, it has created fierce division among parties. Disruption of information with censorship and silencing of any opposing political ideology, are happening daily to quiet them. If this disease remains left untreated these symptoms may lead to more fatal consequences for our Constitution and our once “semi-free” way of life.
I have not yet lived on earth 40 years and within that short time much has changed, but the most rapid changes are the obvious attacks on our Constitution, limiting our given and protected liberties. This has taken place within the past few months, in broad daylight, protected from investigation and accountability under the guise of one political party “creating” more “peace” and “unity”!!!!
I now see most things that are happening within the political realm far from resembling professionalism or acting on behalf of the body of citizens for which it was formed to govern. The current government needs a lesson in humility and service to the people. They are not our masters, but rather in service to the citizens.
The mainstream media should be calling out the moves as they occur, but this is not happening they are working as PR (public relations) operatives to only call out the moves of their approved players ensuring the win. Like a paid-off official calling only the points of the team that paid them. While simultaneously shining the spotlight on any moves the opposing side might make to defend this country then spinning it as racist or unpatriotic radicalism. Well I am normally just your average Jane, working my way through life. Minding my business and taking care of my family. The obvious disregard to the constitution has caused me to embrace my duty as a veteran and a citizen of this nation “under God!” to make others aware of their radical and unethical practices. They are only spinning the narrative to match a specific agenda.
Have a great day folks and remember it is our right to speak freely and to protest peacefully. This is just a small dose of honesty from one American with a splash of my right to free speech! Remember this is supposed to be a free country. Let me know if you find that freedom! I’m embracing mine!
A ton has happened this past year. It has felt like 7 years rolled into one, which is why I must feel dog tired! (I couldn’t resist. 😂)
For our family, we have taken on our own home as a remodeling project. We went down to the dirt, worked on the foundation, then built it all back up again.
I have learned several things that I find extremely annoying as living conditions are much more stressful during construction… I couldn’t stand not being able to locate clothes or necessary items to make it through the day. I felt there was no good place to relax in my home. Everyday having a list of chores that needed done in order to show real progress.
Result of this frustration: I minimized my insane wardrobe. It eliminates the time I wasted looking for the “perfect” thing to wear.
So we worked our full time jobs then came home to complete something, anything… even when we didn’t feel like standing up. There were a few days we let each other off the hook. I’m thinking back now and had I given in on the days I was particularly annoyed there would be so much more work yet to be done.
The result of overcoming this challenge. Self awareness of my capacity to learn new things and push past the discomfort. Being annoyed is an emotion that arrives to warn you that you are in a moment of discomfort, but it will pass.
We began initially set on replacing all the flooring. which quickly became installing new windows, new siding, new paint in every room, and reorganizing everyone’s things to only keep what is necessary. The less we have to straighten up the better after all of the intense labor we have experienced over the last few months.
During the upgrade of our home I used the time to listen to audiobooks by Eckhart Tolle, all the while digging deeper into my own construction. Picking out specific moments in my life that had helped to create problems with my mentality and identity throughout life. I listened to audiobooks about “Seeking Happiness” I listened to heart healing sounds at the frequency that intensifies healing. I made many TikTok videos showing the progress only to give it up, after realizing my unhealthy obsession, and put it aside to focus on “real” life. I had noticed an evolution within those long 3 months
We are still working and the construction zone is near completion… but my personal work will always be one that is in progress as I want to embrace who I AM in each and every situation. I can practice just being. I haven’t forgotten to appreciate the moments that have helped me appreciate the gift of being alive.