2020 – Time To Reflect

A ton has happened this past year. It has felt like 7 years rolled into one, which is why I must feel dog tired! (I couldn’t resist. 😂)

Sooo sleepy…

For our family, we have taken on our own home as a remodeling project. We went down to the dirt, worked on the foundation, then built it all back up again.

I have learned several things that I find extremely annoying as living conditions are much more stressful during construction… I couldn’t stand not being able to locate clothes or necessary items to make it through the day. I felt there was no good place to relax in my home. Everyday having a list of chores that needed done in order to show real progress.

Result of this frustration: I minimized my insane wardrobe. It eliminates the time I wasted looking for the “perfect” thing to wear.

It’s about spending time on what matters.

So we worked our full time jobs then came home to complete something, anything… even when we didn’t feel like standing up. There were a few days we let each other off the hook. I’m thinking back now and had I given in on the days I was particularly annoyed there would be so much more work yet to be done.

The result of overcoming this challenge. Self awareness of my capacity to learn new things and push past the discomfort. Being annoyed is an emotion that arrives to warn you that you are in a moment of discomfort, but it will pass.

Accept your emotional self and embrace all the feelings! Understand that you are still in charge of the negative ones as well as the happy ones.

We began initially set on replacing all the flooring. which quickly became installing new windows, new siding, new paint in every room, and reorganizing everyone’s things to only keep what is necessary. The less we have to straighten up the better after all of the intense labor we have experienced over the last few months.

During the upgrade of our home I used the time to listen to audiobooks by Eckhart Tolle, all the while digging deeper into my own construction. Picking out specific moments in my life that had helped to create problems with my mentality and identity throughout life. I listened to audiobooks about “Seeking Happiness” I listened to heart healing sounds at the frequency that intensifies healing. I made many TikTok videos showing the progress only to give it up, after realizing my unhealthy obsession, and put it aside to focus on “real” life. I had noticed an evolution within those long 3 months

The first room we finished!

We are still working and the construction zone is near completion… but my personal work will always be one that is in progress as I want to embrace who I AM in each and every situation. I can practice just being. I haven’t forgotten to appreciate the moments that have helped me appreciate the gift of being alive.

Such an amazing moment that is “NOW”!

Have a blessed day! Love and peace to all!

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