I now carry a book with me wherever I go. I never know when an opportunity to read will arise. The book “Are You Smart Enough to Work at Google?” sits inside the middle console of my truck. The book, “Choose The Life YOU Want.” is securely placed inside my purse. I have found I like taking them with me. A tangible goal always at the ready. I get much more satisfaction feeding my mind and mentally digesting something that is good for me. I have already spent so much of my time seeking that immediate and less satisfying mental fast food called social media. It may feel good at the time, but it can often leave you feeling worse than when you just entered into that world to fight boredom or to keep the social media withdrawals at bay. It was bloating my mind. I now notice that if I am on those apps it is to only make a post or seek out positive messages. I read with intent. I must practice this everyday, and that is the life I choose. I want to live intentionally.
“Choose The Life You Want”
Chapter 30 (Establish Your Superiority – or- Make others feel good)
“I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.” ~Maya Angelou
I love this quote and the thoughts that it provokes. It shows that how we treat others is really the most important thing. Relationships have always been a weakness of mine. A byproduct of Borderline Personality Disorder. I bring people in quick and expect them to take care of the relationship. I really spend very little time maintaining friendships. It isn’t that I don’t love my friends. I am often found searching my brain and my soul. These activities are isolating activities, and the only person that I have found that enjoys searching my mind and soul as much as I do is my counselor. I have to pay her to feel that way though. I feel that realizing the importance of healthy relationships with people that I love requires work on my part as well. The more I work on this the more I grow. I have been developing emotionally these past few months and I can feel it. I love being aware of myself. Before accepting that I was standing in my own way, I believed that I could do almost anything on my own. That was an ignorant and obvious self-deceptive justification. We may be capable of doing things on our own, but doing life with people that you love and love you is much more fulfilling, and it also shows you the areas in your life that need nurturing, that need support, that also those things you may have allowed into your life that need to be removed.
I have been reading these books a bit slower than I normally read, because I am also studying each chapter, letting it melt in my mind to savor the flavor of each meaningful word. After this I can choose to prescribe certain things to my daily routine. I have noticed that it is causing many changes to occur. I love that it is. I am feeling more in control and less at the mercy of my mental inefficiencies.
If you are searching for a way out of the blah, reach for a good book about being mindful. It is helping me everyday. It isn’t a sprint. Savor the flavor.
Have a wonderful day!
The World in Black and White 